Tessellate

And now I breathe
And now I wait
And now I hope
To tessellate

Suspended in dreams
Unsure of things
Wondering what lies on the other side
Of the waiting...

While my stomach churns
While my heart yearns
While my hands I beg
To keep steady

And my brain fumbles
And my words tumble
And my fingers remain
At the ready

I must stand back
I must close my eyes
I must sit through
The waiting

I must not feel
I must not want
I must endure
This waiting.